A for effort

i lost 9 lbs last week.

just by dieting, i haven't been out lately to run. its amazing how easy i can put the weight i've lost back on - so easy. the weather continues to work against me equals cardio indoors. jogging in place, jumping jacks and possibly jump rope.

"the workout playlist" : all linked to videos on youtube.

More Than A Woman, Aaliyah - video is equally good! i miss Her.

Control Myself, LL Cool J & J.Lo - i literally dont understand what the song is about but it sounds good.

Just Like Me, Jamie Foxx - i love Jamie Foxx. you have to love this video!

Lose Control, Missy Elliot - why not.

Uh Huh, B2k - idk - can't believe it's almost 10 years since this song was a hit, they use to play this everyday, every radio station in CT and on BET back in 2002.

Try Again, Aaliyah - the video is a motivation to get fit. look at her stomach.

We Need A Resolution, Aaliyah - i recently salvaged my old CDs from the trash bin, much to my surprise they still work! - skips a little though. i use to play this from start to finish, again and again.

Ride, Ciara & Ludacris - warning : the video is too hot!

Get it Shawty, Lloyd - fact : i have the biggest crush on him.

Good Girls Go Bad, Cobra Starship - idk.

Animal, Neon Trees - 2 more reps. :D

and.. its raining again.

the zone

there are a lot of things to avoid when on a diet, you have to keep your eyes set on your 120lbs goal. focus, focus, focus on what not to eat, when to eat and how much you can eat. then, while you are avoiding the kitchen, watching TV without a snack a food commercial comes up. yup, the world is working against you.

the pantry - i'm a cook. i see carbonara in eggs, cream and cheese. i see cake in flour and sugar. "what am i going to do with these carrots and potatoes? a, kaldereta. may baka ba? then i open the -

fridge - merong baka! may ice cream din." my daughter loves ice cream too.

i love to entertain people with food. i sometimes cook for no reason. i also have to try everything. so when i get in the -

car - we pass by at least 10 restaurants before we get to the -

mall - where there are more places for food. do you know how many restaurants and food stalls there are in TriNoMa? haha! :)

so, maybe i'll do a little browsing and guess what i just stumbled upon, an article about how big donuts are as news.

resisting the munching

does the weather really have to work against me? rain to me is synonymous to champorado and tuyo, ginataang halo-halo and 30 ounces of hot chocolate plus pajama all day, sleeping in and every other day showers. :D

its been a boring week since i decided to diet and exercise. i haven't invest on any equipment yet, but i've been running and doing sit ups. i'm also eating less. no rice, burgers only! (that's a joke) i gave up pork and beef (i've been doing this for a while), and live on tuna and occasional chicken. no cream for coffee and no butter for anything.

my biggest problem yet is dessert. i LOVE cake and ice cream. now i have to hate donuts too.  

real friends tell you the truth - annoyingly.

my weekend was fun! i had a little free time to catch up with friends. we had dinner, coffee and a lot of talk!

they all teased me for gaining too much weight. pinching my arm, asking how much i weigh and if i auditioned for the Biggest Loser (which was funny yet exaggerated). so i said, "we all gained weight and i'm the only one with the valid excuse - i had children!"

i'm going to let you in a secret : i did a little teen modeling. i was going to put up the link to the site where they have my portfolio BUT i'm too shy. i was 16 ; i don't judge me. :) nothing special, i was very skinny, underweight for my height ; 5'8. that's why my friends wouldn't drop the issue, i nearly doubled. 

i honestly don't feel bad about being heavier. i love my body. i don't feel fat but i know i'm not on the healthy side either. i don't watch what i eat, i have less physical activities and never tried to workout or at least jog(which i use to love).

summer is over, i don't need a bikini body but getting the same comment from everybody is getting old. "you got bigger!". i never dare say that to anybody, i think it's a little offensive even if it's true. seriously,other people never thought of that? 

you read it first. i'm now making my 'WORK OUT' playlist.

you know what i mean

this bothers me : every time a foreign band or celebrity visits the philippines the one thing that they have to be asked is "how do you find the filipino women?" like its the best product around.

 wow. TV! I'm annoyed entertained.

eyesore. i give myself an F in Penmanship.

play list 5/8

i want to make a mix tape for you! :')

Banana Pancakes, Jack Johnson -  i can smile through out this song - it just says it all! "pretend there's no world outside.." parang lahat ng kanta ni JJ pang cuddle weather? o baka yung boses nya lang.

Sing for you, Tracy Chapman - this is a sad song but her voice relaxes me plus its easy to sing along to! ahaha!

Patience, Guns N Roses - a song about missing someone. why cant there be songs like this anymore? im stuck in this era. replay.replay! and the video is super bonus, Axl Rose is beautiful!

Two Wrongs, Wyclef Jean feat. Claudette Ortiz - this i don't know how to explain. take a listen. :')

Live and Learn, The Cardigans - "no, i don't think i can learn.."

Cold Summer Nights, Francis M - one of my favorites! i can't listen to the other versions of this song sung by Nina and Armie(?). i use to like Upside Down,Two Minds Crack - but when 6cycle Mind revived it, (more like killed it) i stopped liking it too much. 

Skinny Love, Bon Iver - this is at the top of my most played list but im not really heartbroken. its so hard to explain what this song means, i almost don't get it. ahaha! it is so beautiful. specially this live performance. moving.

Never There, Cake - GENIUSES! every Cake song is fun.

Generator 1st Floor, Freelance Whales - i just discovered this. WHERE HAVE I BEEN!? all their songs that i listened to made me giddy-happy but so far my favorite is this one. i just fell in love.. yup, in love. big grin**

When I'm With You, Best Coast - "i hate sleeping alone.." i spaced out.

Don't Look Back in Anger, Oasis - i love Oasis but i choose this one today. the video is Eraserheadish or the other way around, this reminds me so much of this video, Julie Tearjerky, ano?

How's it Going Be, Third Eye Blind - another band that i love along with The Cure, The Smiths and Pearl Jam . this is my driving away song.

sunday madness

QC's greatest landmark after SM North EDSA! :)

harry all grown up

tutor, math and me

our body, when exposed to something we dont like reacts in an amazing way. its like its programmed to develop an alibi for you.

my cousin kyle is in first grade. he tosses his bag as soon as he gets home then heads out to play. about 5 minutes into his freedom his most hated person comes in - his tutor. so most of the time - he'd say hes sleepy, sometimes hes tired or hungry, one time he even took a shower. he will do anything to keep the poor teacher away.

kyle hates his tutor.

i never liked math. simple math, algebra, whatever! since elementary i look at math teachers as terrors even if they are nice. i hate them for no reason. i seriously get a fever before a math exam. i dont know how that happens, maybe out of nervousness thinking that i'll probably shit my pants in the middle of the test. thank goodness for calculators because -

i hate math.

here comes the sad part. you. have you ever heard of someone saying that he forgets something because he's so in on what he was doing. like when i forget to eat when i play the guitar. like how mothers burn what they are cooking because of watching tv. like when someone forgets that its time to sleep when shes talking to you because she loves listening to you. somehow YOU manage to be the exact opposite.

you remember all the things you have to do. you suddenly have to cut your nails, you have to go to the bathroom every 20 minutes. you need to go outside to smoke. you like to talk to someone else. you feel like cleaning your car. you have to cook because you are hungry right after lunch. you are tired and instantly falls asleep.

so maybe - just maybe- i thought, you hate me like kyle hates his tutor, you hate me like i hate math.