excuse letter

dear you,

sorry if my blog totally lived up to its description.

last week has been tough.

i was so good at hiding my emotions. i can still smile when im mad and laugh when im annoyed. i can always cry later,when no one is around. im often calm and collected but shattered inside.

ino was our clown. i still cant believe hes gone and im talking about him in past tense.
things would have been easier to accept if it was gods will for him to go. after a year of not hearing from friends the last news you would want to know is that one of them committed suicide. its always like "james got a tattoo" or some couple broke up and somebody got a car but never about death.

we were all too late. maybe he felt hopeless and forgotten. he must have been tired. he must have been so sad and we weren't there.

praying for his soul leaves me in a daze. i cry when im reminded of him. i constantly shake my head, never wanting to believe. im mad, im upset, im sad and i cant hide it.

i dont know if its bravery to face death or fear of living. so many people are fighting for their lives,battling sickness and shit and others just want to end it. some thinks of jumping from a bridge or slitting their wrists when just the thought of dying scares me already.

but then its good to be scared, "it means you still got something to lose"

avelino 'yno' reyes jr.

may 12 1989 - april 8 2009

malamang walang alak diyan..

shes up..

have you heard of the saying "strike while the iron is hot"?

its not related to this. :)

after weeks of not blogging i feel like i have lost my touch - if i ever had it with this.

about this <<, someone told me to just try and turn it on, not hoping for anything because the last time i did, the speakers almost blew up. so i did and its there .. as if nothing happened. the letter m is not really working and some letters just appear without me touching them. creepy. but other than that its fine.

i wasn't so happy -- all i said was what now!?

so.. what did i miss?

"whats the use of being a genius if you cant use it as reason for being unemployed"


and i was like..

"i know right.."

update update

my laptop got so drunk.
i dont know when she'll wake up. :(

ill take her to gilmore. (or greenhills, i dont know, wherever is cheaper.)
we'll be gilmore girls. :)

now im back with desktop. which i so much cooler for writing. haha!

at times when i want to blog but i cant:

i paint my nails black.

watch nickelodeon.

sleep in the playpen with my daughter.

think of selling some of my things.
na parang adik.
ipod. shoes. perfumes.
ill make another post about that.

volunteered to make loot bags for my cousins 1st birthday.
suggestions on what to put in them are very welcome.

imagine flicking cigarettes.
im not even trying to smoke now that im super bored.
im so proud of myself.

no use crying over spilled milk

pero kung sa laptop mo natapon, sige iyak ka lang.

i know, stupid me.

dinala ko nga sa 2 sony centers, (trinoma and quezon ave.) they wouldnt even touch the poor thing. hindi daw kasi dito binili. siguro greenhills na lang pagasa ko.

baloy beach - subic

1 am

: pabili ng redbull sa stopover..
: bakit ka iinom ng redbull?
: hindi pa ko natutulog e, ayaw ko matulog sa byahe..
: dapat blade saka calamansi ipabili mo..

my poor attempts to be like dong ho and chico garcia with a 6mp camera. :)

what do you see?

jessica, jm, cj, kyle and gabby! the time stamps are wrong. i dont know how to hide it.

the sand is obviously not white pero ayos na para sa mga sabik sa dagat. :)

who man-s!?

i should plurk? for brighter days..

but please not hotter days!

i feel like jumping into a pool of iced water.

it amazes me how you can be perfectly still and still sweat. --then you are too lazy to stand up and get a drink 'cause you'll sweat even more and you'll end up dehydrated.

and irritated.

and the last thing you want to hear is..

"oh, cool ka lang!"

mar-cha!

kaya pala kadalasan march ang mga graduation. --nye..!

impyerno nanaman dito sa pinas.

mababawasan ang intake ng kape.

mas madalas maliligo! -- ang pagligo nung mga nakaraang buwan ay pagsubok. --aminin.

at dahil bakasyon na mas marami na kong maaayang maglagalag dahil wala na silang mga pasok -- problema lang e, wala rin silang mga pera.

random facts about me -- who cares!?!

for the spirit of gayahan!

honestly, every blog i read lately has this. sometimes 10 things you should know about me. 7 random facts about me, 9, 15? 2? 4 would be nice. superbianca gave out 25.

my favorite number is 8 (so i will let you know 8 things about me, i have 7 more) because you can draw a cat from it! just add eyes, ears and a tail.

this is hard! haha! im not enjoying! haha! you cant really say that "hey! im a loser!" or "i can do alot of ripley's believe it or not shit" unless you want to freak people out with your bluntness.

i play the guitar.

when i was young, playmates refer to me as lavinia. the mean girl from the cartoon/tv series/movie princess sarah. so that makes them the princess sarah! haha! i dont get why those ugly, stupid girls said that!? i was dead nice to them! :P

i cant eat anything with calamansi in it.

im a rusher! i love chico and delle!

i cut classes in high school. just on math, i don't understand a thing so why waste time sitting there. i wasted time sitting in the cafeteria instead.

im an only daughter -- of a broken couple.