Monday, May 10, 2010

hi, am i you? are you still me?

do you ever feel like you are here but you are not really here? you stare at one thing so long that people think that you are deep into your thoughts but you're not.. you're just looking, not thinking.

b_l_a_n_k

not high. not sad. not happy. just there, existing.

we were on the beach last week. there i was, walking on fine sand, waves kiss my feet. i walked far from the crowded beach until the the noise faded. i enjoyed the walk with the ocean and the sun. i forgot how i loved the sand, sun and sea. it was pure bliss to be reunited with the things you thought you can live without.

its like when you quit smoking and then sadly went back to your vice. the first puff is like breaking free! you are happy though you know that cigarettes are disgusting.

sometimes all that matters is that you are happy. sometimes all you need is to do what you really like - even if it is bad. sometimes you just need to be you and forget about what everyone else might think.

its not bad to put yourself first - sometimes.

2 comments:

Rej said...

i totally agree with the last sentence. feeling ko nga importante yun eh. kc in the long run, we cannot give what we do not have... it's easier to be happy for others kung tayo mismo sa sarili natin nararamdaman natin yun.

:)

YULI said...

im not even aware na YUM WITH CHEESE ang tawag sa cheese burger nila. para lang ding "pabili ng colgate, yung close up" :)