i look like an unhappy person, honestly. though i know(i really do) that we should just enjoy life, even if it gets scary.
i also know this - that i have no reason to be sad. other parts of my life might suck but most of the time im lucky or just luckier. i have a very smart daughter and we are able to give her her needs. we have enough.
the real deal is - i am happy but im scared. sometimes, when everything is perfect i know something bad is bound to happen. when you have all that you possibly want, its terrifying. it feels like you're about to lose something.
its hurts to be negative about anything. i get scared before i appreciate things and be happy.
