you're lucky

maasar ka pag-ako ang kausap mo, kasi whenever people complain about life, vent their anger and tell me their problems i tell them - 'you're lucky!'

but then luck is an illusion, its made up. some say that they got lucky after a good day - then we blame bad luck when it is US who actually messed up. its funny how some invest in charms, renovations, fireworks and too much red when nothing is in our hands.

so, should i change that to 'you are more blessed' or 'you should pray more'?

raised by wolves

partly cloudy.

some of me i learned from my mom. some of me look a lot like my father. alot of me is by my grandparents. a part of me are from my uncles, a little from my titas. bits and pieces from books but most of this i kind of got as i went along.

they separated, moved on with their lives with out me - but in the middle of all that i did not pity my pitiful young self. i learned that if no one is going to be there for me, i have to be strong for me.

being a part of a broken family does not give you the license to be a rebel. it gives you an initiative to be different from what you grew up on. you should set that mistake in your life (that isn't your fault) as example of what not to do.

yes it does confuse me. until now i ask questions and often think of what could have been. but as i grow older i realized that the person (cliche warning) that im today wouldnt be as strong if i wasnt weathered by my fate.

mad glitch.

cool off

i hope to see you when i get back - mid april!

i will schedule some, but wont get to visit your pages or read and answer comments which is my favorite part.

sleep to dream

i read this somewhere..

"make your dreams come true! wake up at the right time."

its so funny when your dream gets mashed up with the real stuff, like once im dreaming and in my dream im reading the newspaper and the song unwell by matchbox20 was playing on the radio then i woke up to my uncle singing the song. OR worse, and i know a lot have experienced this same embarrassing moment when in your dream, you got up and went to the bathroom to pee BUT in the middle of your business you wake up in a wet bed, admit it!

i was drunk when that happened to me. so.. yes, tmi!

loner mode

im not believing its already march.

parang kahapon lang, im trying so hard to get my sh*t together so i'd be/look/feel ready(?) for new years tapos march na! ano daw!?

february sucked, thats what.

but i just have to say, im, we're all very lucky to be on the side of the world where we can appreciate how the moonlight is brighter.

good morning!

1 dont be parading out there in your skimpy clothing without sunscreen.

2 dont walk around the pool or the beach with you ipod, camera or anything not waterproof. you're out there to get wet not to brag.

3 hydrate

uh huh.you're welcome!

character reference

the day i was so hoping not to come came anyway.

today, i have to stop bumming around and get a job. which is close to not possible because 1)im not done with school and 2) im not goin' back to school. - but if you are reading this AND you are a student then STAY in school.

lets see, im tall, (?) sleep deprived, i dont know where im good at, and if you are a junkie and needs a buddy you can hire me!

:(

if

you are wondering who cares, its definitely not the person who is telling you to runaway.

akala mo.. yun pala hindi!

on the go

i miss my old music library.

my portable music storage device froze and i needed to restore it. and since the stupid me, after, reformatting my computer didnt install back the application it needs to run - is left with a wiped out ipod.

foo fighters, skid row, tegan and sarah, the cure.. gone. michael jackson music videos.. GONE!
that ipod had in it my music from almost five years ago! the crappy music that i listened to when i was 17 was there - i dont feel so bad after all.

i always thought that people my age wont like my choice of music. back in elementary, all the girls in my class were gaga over the back street boys, i like them too - until now, but at that time i listened to spandau ballet and fra lippo lippi.

i use to think that im the only person who know all my favorite songs, and if someone i know happens to also know a song i like, i'd say she heard it from me OR i'll just stop liking that song. people like that are annoying - yes, im annoying! like the song was exclusively written for me and others are not allowed to like it? but seriously, i stopped liking reggae when punk rocker kids start wearing che guevarra shirts and relating him to ska. ano daw!? akala ata nila sa bob marley yun. nalito na rin pati ako.

i really miss jack johnsons voice, all i have here are new songs from black eyed peas, t-pain and cobra starship - danceable but not ME. on the positive note, i have most of my music in CDs. rip na lang pag-sinipag.

anyway, whats in your playlist?